and the fat lady has sung..

no one desires to be in a place or in a predicament one does not want to be in.. no one chooses to be put on a line, forced to make a choice.. i was taught that you choose where you want to be, whether by your own fault or choice.. this also relates to dilemmas.. a dilemma is not a great place to be.. i have come to a point where i must make a decision and that decision not only affects my life, but others.. it is a decision, not taken lightly and once executed, changes so many facets of my daily life..

it is sort of a domino-effect.. one domino falls, causing another to fall, another and another until all dominoes are down, the playing field is leveled.. although it is a scene of disaster, chaos and destruction, it is the most advantageous vantage point from where i stand.. there is nothing in the way to cloud or block my judgment, nothing to keep me from doing what i do best: protecting a precious one..

a friendship terminated, intersecting lives now severed and a sad, heavy heart are all part of the orders for the day.. how do i proceed..? how do i make the loss more tolerable..? when does the daily life return to a somewhat normal state..?

a state of being tolerant is what is preached to us from childhood.. you are to be tolerant of the ignorant ways of others, you are to be tolerant and 'take the higher road' when someone has wronged you, you are to be tolerant of stupidity.. we are told to be tolerant of so many intolerant things it makes me wonder how we can become a person of morals and values when you spend most of your time and life policing the morals and values of others..

i feel there is a time when being tolerant is just not acceptable.. i have to draw the line in the sand and have made a promise to not cross it because the safety and well-being of a most precious life is questioned.. it is that state of questioning that has led me to this uncomfortable place of a dilemma..

i have experienced many dilemmas in my lifetime to this point, unfortunately there are sure to be many more to come.. yet, despite the time of day, time of year or whenever it may come, and at the end of the day, the solution to a dilemma is usually one that you know is not one you are going to like, either way.. it all boils down to this: the solution is final, the curtain has closed, the proverbial fat lady has sung..