spin me round and round..

do you ever have those days when you feel as if you are on auto-pilot..? as if you are not completely in control, but you know you are..? well, today is one of those days for me.. i know i've been awake, i know i've been at work, but it's been one big blur, the kind of blur you get when you are being spun around before pinning the tail on the donkey as a kid.. repetitive motion is what seems to be saving me at this point.. sometimes the responsibilities of everyday life seem overwhelming, as if there is no end in sight and you want to crawl back into bed, hide underneath the covers just wishing it is all a dream..

i saw a man today, sleeping on the lawn at work.. sound asleep at 6:00pm when i left after a full day of working with things most will never see nor pay attention to if they did.. a backpack was used as a pillow underneath his moppy, blonde, semi-dreadlocked/semi-curly hair.. a dark brown, mechanic-style covered a dirty-looking, moss-green t-shirt and he wore a pair of khaki shorts along with a pair of sockless feet in a pair of dingy, once navy blue shoes.. but, despite his obvious status a homeless man, a hobo, a vagrant, he looked so peaceful..

all this makes me wonder what my life has in store for me.. will i always be so overwhelmed..? will i ever be at peace while alive..? the only peace i have at this moment is watching my child sleep.. knowing that all my responsibilites, one entails making sure she is safe, happy and well-cared for and my peace is solidified by watching her angelic face in a deep slumber.. only if i could sleep that well, but my mind never rests long enough..